Sometimes things happen that you didn’t plan.
Take for instance the fact that I didn’t blog in the month of November.
It was not planned, I promise you. In fact I had my act together complete with a list of topics and ideas to welcome in the holiday season as well as a few fall cleaning and organizing posts.
But, life got in the way. Nothing bad or wrong, I assure you, just general busyness.
And, I didn’t like it at all. In fact, I spent a lot of the month of November re-evaluating my priorities and my life.
As most of you know I went to work full-time as a personal trainer last September after being a stay-at-home-mom for seventeen years. It was not that we needed the money (although having a senior in high school it does relieve some pressure), it was that I was bored, or at least thought I was bored at home. Going to work made me feel like I was actually contributing more to the family. In reality, I do believe going to work has taken away from my family. I have spent basically eight hours a day (not all at once, but spread anywhere form 6 AM to 9 PM) at the gym Monday through Friday, as well as a few Saturday mornings for clients. There are e-mail to be sent, phone calls to be made, and marketing to be done. I am considered self-employed, but lets face it, I am not. In fact it seem lately that any decision that I make regarding my job is the wrong one or not good enough.
But the thing that set my mind spinning, leading to a month of stepping away was a comment made by one of my daughter’s girlfriends…. “Your momma doesn’t decorate for holidays and fix fun meals anymore.”
That simple comment hit me like a tone of bricks. If my kids friends noticed, what could my family possibly think and see?!!
All of the things I had prided myself in and loved doing for my family had taken a back burner for a job that I do not love.
I’m not going to bash my employer, because that is not who I am, but I am going to say again, I do not love my job.
When I graduated college years ago, the speaker at our commencement ceremony told us that if you do not love your job it is time to re-evaluate your goals and what you want in life.
I won’t go into detail with everything that I have wrestled with in the last month, but while on an eight-day vacation away with my husband and children (the first real trip in over two years), I made some decisions that will benefit me and my family, hopefully helping me return to a place I love dear…. HOME.
These are things I will slowly change and hopefully bring me as well as my family peace.
I would like to point out that I am not going to cover you up with posts to make up for everything that has been on my mind. I’m working on a schedule to ease myself back into doing the things I love for my family as well as myself. My goal is to post two to three times a week and get back into the swing of things and hopefully post things to inspire and encourage you in your own lives!
Have a fabulous Monday y’all!